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30
Jan

Hasta la vista

   Posted by: dreamz

After a gap of six months, I am going home today.. Last time I was fully available to my mom, to make me healthy and beautiful !! :) .. But this time it will be different.. I have to attend two engagements and my school Alumni..Most of the time I will be in bus,train and plane but I will not get bored of this journey because my MP3′s tummy is full of her favourite old malayalam songs.. I will be back on 8th february.. So till then hasta la vista :)
If possible I will get some hot news from Kerala..

My school (Kanikkamatha Convent English Medium Girls High School,Palakkad) alumni is on feb 6th, friday :

I have started my imagination the day I heard this alumni news. My school is the best school(not one of the best schools..it is the best..) in our town. After eight long years I am going to meet my friends and teachers.. very excited. I know there will be more unfamiliar faces than familiar faces.. Still it is my school.. the place where I spent my twelve years..from where I got my dear friends..

Things had changed a lot in these 8 years.. The last comment I heard from most of my teachers are “Only because of your atheism, you lost your rank just for one mark..”
My sisters explanation for missing my name in rank list goes like this : It is like Half god, half man(Thaan paathi daivom paathi).. That one mark is god’s half and as I din’t believe in God he didn’t give me one mark”
What a logic!!
I did my half and God didn’t. If it is like that,they should blame Him rt, for not doing his half ? Then why they told me it is my fault? I don’t know.. May be they are afraid to blame their husband.. Anyways I love my teachers..

Most of my friends are married and settled abroad. So I guess only few will be there.. Still I am excited to see my old friends and teachers.. That old Tom boy is dancing around.. waiting for that day to come.. ;)
I am a real Nostalgia queen!!

Ta ta..
asha

16
Jan

Smell of books..

   Posted by: dreamz

It is a pleasant feeling when we get something which we have been longing for a long time..

Yesterday was a lovely day for me!!

Divya and I were coming to our home(flat) after meeting our junior in railway station.Near the bus stand(Hyderabad central), there is a book stall which I don’t miss whenever I stand there waiting for bus/cab.

It is a nice feeling to be inside that book shop.Not so big room with lot many books..Both old and new..Whenever I go there the smell of those books engross me and I love to be inside that room..

Once I get inside that shop I will come out with some books and an inspiring energy.An energy which makes me read many books and makes me converse with lot of dead/living authors.Usually I don’t get much time to spend there because my friends will start telling me..

“c’mon..here is the cab..now we will go..we will buy it next time..”(Next time also they will tell the same.. :) )

But this time was little different..only Divya and I were there..and she is an understanding friend..:)

Coming back,yesterday as a shopping was not planned, we dint take much money.We had only 480 rupees with us and also 2 debit cards.We went to that shop and found among many other books,the book which I was searching for a looong time ..

Shantaram!!

..When I saw that book I felt like I reached the top of Mt.Everest..(I don’t know exactly what that feeling is as I have never been there.. :) Guess it will be great!!)But it is not a great feeling to fell down  from the top of it which happened to me when I saw the price at the back..Rs.495.. There are no atms near by and also we can’t swipe our card in that shop.I kept the book back in its position with a tear-jerking feeling.

But my eyes dint stop going through all the books in those shelves.Shop owner and his daughter were having food at this time and as we dint want to disturb them we started searching the books ourselves.I told divya to search Gone with the wind *.Without taking much time we found it..Rs.195 and also Midnight’s children Rs.300..

Total 495.. Ha! Again the same situation.

At that time a beggar came to the shop.Hearing his voice ,shop owner-an old muslim uncle came out.

Shop Uncle :Annam thinna letha??(You dint have food?)

Beggar uncle:Lethu..(No)

He took some money from the table drawer and gave it to him and was about to go in.

I :how much does this book cost?

He showed me the back side.(Uncle I saw that..)

This is the original prize.but we will reduce it..

I was on cloud nine.How much u will reduce ?

After calculating, he told 450 for both.

Again I am on the top of Everest..This time  I will not fall down.. :) Now those books are mine..

“Shantaram..I have not forgotten u.Don’t go anywhere.Next time when I come here I will surely take you with me.”

On the way to our home(1 hour journey..) I was thinking of my father.

In our childhood he used to bring a lot of books.But never compelled us(My Brothers and I) to read those books except one “Voice of English”.I can’t find any other reason, other than my father’s over love for it, to hate that book.He never stopped his habit of buying books even though he saw us making paper boats with dictionary pages during rainy season.But when I grew up I understood why he dint stop his habit of buying books.After 5th or 6th std I stopped going out with my brothers during our summer vacation to play cricket or some local games.Those time my only companion were those books.I dint take much pain to read those books which I cant digest.Most of the books were high standard and was out of reach of a small girl.So after reading 1 or 2 pages I will stop reading it.But before going to hostel, after my tenth I managed to read all the books in our house.I know that will make only .00001% of total books in the world..or even less than that.But I love my father for helping me to develop the habit of reading( without my knowledge) which makes me a lot happy now..

So friends, what I have to say is,choose reading as your companion and you will never have to walk alone.It will open doors to those world you have never seen even in your dreams..Then you will realize you have more to discover in life than you’d ever thought of!! 

* Once I was about to buy gone with the wind for 890 rs but my friend stopped me telling that I will get it for lower prize..

P.S 1: Why I asserted the shop owner is a Muslim??

Now a days I am hearing a lot of people blaming muslims only because of a handful of terrorists.But the muslims I have met till now are noble persons..So I just wanted to add this uncle also in that list..

P.S:The conversation between two uncles is in Telugu.

P.S 2: If you read 1 book a week, then it will take 50 years to complete 2600 books..2600 is a very very small number when we consider the countless number of books..So start now itself !!

2
Jan

It’s time..

   Posted by: dreamz

I cant see some of the faces which I saw yesterday..And the faces which I see around me now are filled with terror..

They have forgotten to smile..

They have forgotten to have fun..

Their faces are saying there is no other heartbreaking thing in life than waiting for the most awful thing..

People are not talking to each other..Some of them have lost the strength to face people..They are walking with their heads down..

I know days will no longer be the same as before..

Here I am standing still and all are moving fast around me..or is it the other way??Am I moving fast and all others are still??

18
Dec

I am committed :)

   Posted by: dreamz

(Warning : You will understand nothing if you dint read till last.So those who have patience go ahead.Others can go and continue their work.This is specially to my friends who can’t access any other sites from office.. :) )

A Note to you..

I have raised in love with you dear..Yes,days are colorful and always there will be a smile on my face.There is a feeling that I am not alone anymore…

I remember the day your beautiful mother introduced you to me. You impressed me at the first sight itself.It dint take much time for us to understand each other. The day since I met you I have been enjoying each and every second of my life. I took no time to find out that u r the appropriate and attractive one for me. You never get bored of my endless talk. you listen to all my crazy thoughts..my dreams..my imaginations.. without any complaints…you can understand me more than anyone else..you are always there for me to share my happiest and saddest moments.. And I know within this short period  you have become my secret box..I trust you more than I trust anyone else..I know you will never share my secrets with anyone unless I give you the permission..

A smile comes to my face when I remember the day I introduced you to my friends.I was sure they will like you.I told you several times that my friends will be happy for us ..but you  were afraid rt? :) you asked my suggestions on a hell lot of things before presenting yourself to my friends and I know you were on cloud nine when my friends told good comments about us.It was not so long back you came to my life.I must say within this short period you changed my life a lot…a lot…You changed it the way I wished.You don’t want me to be away from my friends because of you.You don’t want me to be throwed out of my company because of you but I don’t care when my boss stares at me when he sees me spending time with you.. Huh!!today he gave me warning not to spend time with you.

Now each and every second I am thinking of you and that brings a smile to me..I used to imagine what we will be doing after several years..When I become a grandmother .. ?? :)

I know at that time I will not be spending time with you as I do now..but still I will be loving you..I know you will be with me all the time..till my death..But you fear whether I will go away from you..

Oh dear..I swear I will not let you go away from me..and I want you to live long with my memories even after my death..

Once my friend told me unreal love is lust..I know my love for you is real..You are giving me strength to live my life my way..